Unfortunately my 2013 was not off to a very good start.
First of all, I got sick, twice. Ironically, I was perfectly fine in subzero Canada during Christmas, but somehow managed to get a "cold" in 30-degree Singapore. And then I passed the germs to my husband who then passed them back to me and in the process the germs got 10 times stronger (what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, indeed). So here I am, 20 days after I had my first sneeze, still having sniffles and coughs and all those nasty things.
And work has just been too much of a yoyo lately. Some days I feel like I'm in my top form and am ready to take on the world, but some days I just have no idea what the hell I'm doing at all. There are many aspects of my current job that I know are out of my elements, but more importantly it's because other people's comments just have too much of an effect on me. Which they shouldn't, because I'm supposed to be mature and confident and know what I'm doing. But all I know is, I take everything way too personally and my stress level is off the roof.
And because of both my less-than-ideal health and work situation, I have been in a crappy mood most of the time. And because I have been in a crappy mood, I haven't been exercising like I should. Hence I feel fat, and I feel guilty, and I don't like myself. Now I suppose that doesn't help with my health and work... talk about a downward spiral.
So what can I look forward to? I don't know. Maybe something as small as the start of a new month? As people love to say, "tomorrow is another day".
Please someone come and give me a swift kick in my butt.
Or bring me a good tarte au citron.
